all you need is love

been forever. lol.


so yeah. my grandma died. and my mom moved to arizona. so now ive no mom near me. this fuckin sucks. i miss her. and lucy. my puppy is gone too...wah! work is lame without my mom. lame.

Adrian and I are still amazing as ever. i love him to pieces and i think i would have gone crazy if i didnt have him to lean on.






still in school. gonna take a screenwriting class soon. my production teacher thinks i might do well in one. so yeah.



and thats life.

ive been sitting around trying to put words to my thoughts and im having such a difficult time making them both make sense and not stupid sounding...do you think im weird...? i dont know what to do...im so lost. i dont know. i only have...well thats hard to word. because i know i can talk to jill. i can tell her anything and everything. but she cant help me feel better more than just telling me its all gonna be ok. that shes thinking of me, and she hopes it turns out ok. she cant give me a hug, or let me cry on her shoulder...a 30 hour drive is just dumb for that sort of thing. then there is adrian. i can tell him anything and all that. and he can hug me and all that. but hes a guy...do i make any sense? i dont know. ive drifted so far from my friends at canyon that its just ridiculous to me to believe that they are close like jill...and then there is monica. everytime i mention you to my mom, like how we hang with adrian, she gets a funny look on her face. not a bad one on your part. she really likes you. but she knows you and adrian dated a little. and she just thinks its weird that you and i can be friends. is that weird? i really like you too...do i sound weird yet? like, seriously. i feel so stupid, but i feel like i need to tell you that. its hard for me to wrap my mind around it i guess. the fact that i have a friend that i want to hang out with more often. i consider jill my sister in all but blood...thats how close she and i are. you see? you see how much trouble i am having? lol. i should just stop typing now and say that im glad i met you. ive never had friends really...well thats dumb cause i have. i mean ive never had a friend that i cared enough about to care if we drifted apart. but i dont want that to happen with you. you are like, my only friend. im just going to leave it at that for now. adrian is here. we r going to get food or something. hes picking cause im just not wanting to think right now. i want to forget everything bad that has happened to me in the past week and just have a good time. i can think about the crap in the morning. but i will tell you bout it when i get home. i really do have to go...ttyl and happy new year

so its once again time for a post. its been a while...lol. i quit dennys for real this time. never will i go back. i work at mimis cafe now! finally. more money! score! lol. and the food is better there.

its finals week. i finished my drawing final on saturday. i am so proud that i did it before it was due! ha! that ment that i didnt have to go to class this morning. i now have today and tomorrow to finish my animation. i should be able to. if i work constantly during every free moment after i finish this. but ill do it. its like, the only grade all semester. and then on wednesday i have my last crit on the final in drawing. thatll be cool cause jon and i are gonna get coffee before and just relax during the whole thing. and then i have my art history final which is only called a final because it is the last test. thatll be ok. i only care about getting a C neway. i dont think its possible for me to get nething better.

adrian, monica, my mom, and i are goin to disneyland on friday! well, my mom is MAYBE goin...dunno for sure yet. but it is gonna rock! its my moms xmas present if she goes. lol. and im considering it my birthday outing as well.

its cold....shiver. i got to see wicked! it was sooooooooooo awesome! ima go see it again for sure.

i have absolutly NO freakin idea on what to get Adrian for christmas....this is ridiculous. i want it to be meaningful, but i dont know what. arg...its times like these where i wish i hadnt given him that ring yet. lol. not really. he was so happy when he got that. what do i get?! *screams in frustration* .............ill think on it later.

im sleepy. yawn...well, i best be off to work on my animation. ttyl

*huggs*
ashley

animation is crazy. i never knew that it was that much work. well, i knew it, but its like 20x more than i thought neway. crazy. im having trouble getting into my project...maybe if i work on it more i will like it. i dunno. its moby dick in black and white and im told it looks good, but im bored. maybe i should add a twist at the end...it goes way to fast too. i need more frames and shit and i need to fix the swimming and my russian teacher is a nutcase. maybe thats why im not totally committed yet. my teacher annoys me. ok. im gonna put about 45 min into the project (it would be more, but i have to go to class soon) and then got to class and work some more. grr....


guitar hero soon!

omg the new southwestern chicken sandwich thing at dennys sure is tasty! lol. and pumpkin pie a la mode. mmm...ok. ima go to school now.

*huggs*

so its been forever. yeah. well i just got off of work. ive been working late night every night for about 3 weeks, and now i am 2 days late, 2 days swing, and one day morning. and i havnt seen mina in 2 whole weeks! she went on vacation or sumthing. but yes! i registered and paid for my classes at COC. im in trig, intro to animation, drawing 1, and art history. coolness.

i saw No Reservations last night. adrian wanted to go see it too, so we both did..yeah. lol. ima reword that. adrian and i saw that movie. yeah. it was adorable. and sad. and funny. so not what i thought it would be. but good. and there was a preview for a movie about a kid who loves music. i know that isnt an adaquate description, but its 4 in the morning and im tired. bite me. im going to see that movie. im thinking im going to redo my livejournal. im bored with this one. and i have nothing else to report really, so bye for now.

*huggs*
ashley

i worked all night. crazy. i was the ONLY server on in the restauraunt from 11pm-6am. and it was awesome. i made like, $80 in tips. plus i didnt take a break so they had to adjust it so that it looks like i worked for 8 hours instead of 7. so instead of being paid for 6.5, im paid for 7.5! a whole extra hours pay! woot! and the best part of this story...i was at sand canyon away from mina because they were shorthanded. ...well...more like someone overlooked that shift when they were making the schedule. but im glad they did. because it was fun to get away from mina for that long. i actually enjoyed work. and made money. late night isnt so bad. to a point. i would hate doing that all the time, but once a week seems cool. like if i worked graveyard every sunday and swing the rest i would be good. but at sand canyon. cause thats where the money is...lol. ok. ima go take a shower now. and then take hayley to work. maybe sleep later. byes

curiosity killed the cat; satisfaction brought him back
you promised.
promises were made to be broken.
promises were made to be broken my dear redrum, to be broken. splinttered. shattered. hammered apart. FORE.
lou, lou, skip to m'lou, skip to m'lou my daaarlin...
just close your eyes and it will be gone.
lou, lou, skip to m'lou...
curiosity killed the cat my dear redrum, redrum my dear, satisfaction brought him back safe and sound, from toes to crown; from head to ground he was safe and sound. he knew that those things
are like scary pictures, they cant hurt you, but o my god
what big teeth you have grandma and is that a wolf in a BLUEBEARD suit or a BLUEBEARD in a wolf suit and im so
glad you asked because curiosity killed that cat and it was the HOPE of satisfation that brought him
come on and hurt me. come on and hurt me, you cheap prick. cant do it, can you? huh? youre nothing but a cheap fire hose. cant do nothing but lie there. come on, come on!
"late, im late," said the white rabbit.
lou, lou...
the white rabbit had been on its way to a croqet party to the Red Queens croquet party storks for mallets hedgehogs for balls
OFF WITH HIS HEAD! OFF WITH HIS HEAD! OF WITH HIS HEAD!
WHACK-BOOM! straight through the wicket.
OFF WITH HIS HEEEEEAAAAAAAD--
pray tell me: Why is a raven like a writing desk?
having a wonderful time, wish you were fear
croquet? or roque?
i dont think they can hurt you...theyre like pictures in a book...close your eyes any theyll be gone
nothing there nothing there not there at all NOTHING THERE THERE IS NOTHING!

time passed and he was just beginning to relax, just begining to realize that the door must be unlocked and he could go, when the years-damp, bloated, fish-smelling hands closed softly around his throat and he was turned implacably around to stare into that dead and purple face.

well. its been a while since an actual post with something in it that wasnt copied and pasted. lol. so i figured since i was bored and alone with nothing to do that i would post. hmm...i am a high school graduate now! woot. lol. been this way for a month and i dont feel much different except that i have too much free time. ive seen a few movies. transformers was fucking amazing. ima see it again maybe, just for the special effects, though the rest of it was amazin too. i saw 1408. seriously trippy. great stephen king movie. im gonna buy my harry potter tickets tomorrow if possible. i hope to god it isnt sold out. cause that would suck big time. i am going to a workshop at COC to schedule my classes for the fall. thats in a few weeks. then i have registration and i will start a week after that in august. til then, its just work. and i need more of that. i am late with my rent. and i have to pay my cell bill too...and my car payment. i am so screwed with the money thing. im going to start working graveyard shifts to make more. that is the only way i will increase my paycheck. ive also been looking for a job that pays better. no one is hiring tho...thats lame in so many ways. but ill keep trying while i attempt to increase my hours at dennys from 20 or less to 30. that might not happen. but i shall try. and i will not ever say yes to mina if she askes me to leave early. i just cant afford it. how am i suposed to pay rent or any other bills if i get less than 20 hours a week?! even 30 (which i still dont get, even if i dont leave early...) how?! id like to see her try my schedule and be able to live. i hate being late on my payments. i thank god that its my dad im paying. cause it would be so bad if it was anyone else. sigh.

i went to adrians aunts house last night for fourth of july fun. we set off loads of illegal fireworks and had a blast. in the end we were seting off 5 at a time because it was like 1130 and we were afraid that someone would call the cops. lol. but it was the best fourth ever. course...everything is better with adrian. ive noticed that. its cause i love him, i know, but seriously. i have to most fun when i am with him. i even enjoy work when he is there. partially cause i love it when he visits, and partially because i know that it bugs the crap out of mina to see me talking to him while i work. course, she claims that im NOT working, but i am. i know how to multitask. lol. im so happy being with him. i cant say that enough. happy happy happy..:P

my mom is getting married on saturday. and guess who its with? James. yes. James. it surprised the heck outta me at first cause she had been dating Dr. B the day before she told me the news, but whatever. hes ok i supose. but i dunno cause i never spend time with him anymore. but anyway, the wedding is in ventura on Saturday. adrian, hayley, and i are driving out there together. and i am house sitting for mom friday and saturday night. adrian is staying over too. but so will hayley. lol. and my mom and james are going on vacation in a month and i will be house sitting again. so maybe without hayley. i dunno. it could be fun. ;)

well...i think im going to go read or sumthing like that. cause i dont really have anything else to write at the moment. so ill just ttyl!

*huggs*
ashley

xxxmeli17xxx (12:38:38 PM): hey ashley
BirgitteGaiden (12:39:36 PM): hi
xxxmeli17xxx (12:41:03 PM): how are u doing?
BirgitteGaiden (12:41:09 PM): fine. tired...but alive
xxxmeli17xxx (12:41:32 PM): dats good
BirgitteGaiden (12:41:21 PM): trying to get my COC stuff straightened out
xxxmeli17xxx (12:41:40 PM): 0o0o i see
xxxmeli17xxx (12:44:26 PM): soo hmm.. wat happen yesterday?
BirgitteGaiden (12:49:35 PM): i dunno
BirgitteGaiden (12:49:45 PM): ull have to ask hayley
BirgitteGaiden (12:49:49 PM): i was asleep
xxxmeli17xxx (12:50:00 PM): kayla is here
BirgitteGaiden (12:50:01 PM): when i woke up the cops were already there
BirgitteGaiden (12:50:26 PM): ook then ask kayla.
BirgitteGaiden (12:50:28 PM): lol
xxxmeli17xxx (12:52:41 PM): Kayla says to stay out of her business
BirgitteGaiden (12:53:01 PM): um ok. but u asked. not me. jeez
xxxmeli17xxx (12:53:34 PM): naw yea i know but she said k w/e
BirgitteGaiden (12:54:06 PM): and besides, i only was outside to see if she was ok. i never asked what happened
xxxmeli17xxx (12:54:38 PM): its
xxxmeli17xxx (12:54:40 PM): kayla
BirgitteGaiden (12:54:39 PM): ook
xxxmeli17xxx (12:55:45 PM): like i understand that u care and all but like its my business and i just hate how u and Hayley get nosey
BirgitteGaiden (12:58:03 PM): omg. how is it that im nosey when melissa what just asking me what happened?! i told her that i dont know. u can read it urself. i never asked you nething. it is not my fault that i saw the cops outside. its not something you can hide. but i never tried to find out what happened.
xxxmeli17xxx (12:58:46 PM): whatever




right. some people are simply ridiculous. seriously. my neighbors are freaks.